Ego

Disebabkan ego aku yg terlalu tinggi... AKu nak buat baik dgn org pun susah walaupun aku nak buat baik ... Orang yg ego tinggi ni, dia takkan buat baik kat depan org tu ...  tapi dlm diam2 je ... and takkan sebut2 kebaikan dia tu .. tapi dlm diam, mengharap jugak org tu tahu yg dia dah buat something yg baik kat org tu . . Lagisatu kalau dia sygkan seseorang ... pun takkan tunjukkan kasih sayang dia.. kalau boleh, dia lagi nak usik org tu ... saja buat dia marah .... kalau dah marah, rasa serba salah pulak .. nak mintak maaf takley.. sebab egonya tinggi sangat  .. Payah kan... Andainya lah ada orang yg faham aku  ............. Mesti, setiap apa yg aku buat, dia takkan marah... sebaliknya cube mendekati aku dgn cara yg baik ... and I'm waiting for this kind of man...

Tersepit di tgh2

Tersepit .... kalau tersepit ni semudah tersepit kat pintu,.. tau lah aku nak buat macam mana ... tapi sekrang ni masalahnye,, aku tersepit diantara tiga orang .. n aku xtau nak buat apa... Aku ... tak tahu nak back up sape .... Aku xtau nk tolong siapa ....
Mereka bertiga, adalah org yg terpenting dlm hidup aku .... aku xtau nk buat apaa .......

I don't hear u ..

I'm being to afraid to move forward... to have what i should have.. to gain what i can gain....  I am afraid about what people will say .. will criticize me ... i just can't hear them ... it will make me down ....... it will make me change my mind ..not to become what i want ... and make my decision goes wrong too ... it is worse right ? More than what i can think .... so, i decide to not hear what everyone will say ... and continue what i am decided for ... by keep it a secret ... but i dont know if what i'm doing right now is right or wrong .... how arrogant i am .... not want people know yours but still confuse about your decision.... Ya Allah .. please help me ....to make a right decision .....

Aku wish i could forget it

Taktahu lah kenapa aku mcm gini  ... sedih dah bertempat... Aku tak tahu apa yang aku sedih kan ... Aku xtau apa yg aku patut buat   . Sedih sangat  .....
So, i decide to talk to someone .... doing things that i always do... wechat, twitter, facebook, instagram ... it doesn't mean i want everyone to know i am sad right now.. but its just a way for me to get better ... to remove this unreasonable sadness.... i'm tired... so tired ... it has been a day since i felt sad... i talk to my friend...they talking rubbish .. i get angry .. i do feel another emotions when i talk to others... and that's a bit better .. than feel sad... angry is better than sad.... so, iy just happen that way  .. i dont know...
I wish i could run away from this sadness..

Reaaly need to go... i wish i could finish my word..but next time i think ..